Darkness

Darkness lives in me unmoved. A casted shadow clocks this figure like a cyclical ride, outcasting the self that I hide, stealth removed by the light's tidal rays. Night falls over and my sense of self becomes soaked in space. For the time being I am true to the invisibility I feel. My nocturnal beast now aware, behaving without a host of knowledge. Standing on the edge of all the lies, pushed by a force beyond the skies, falling into unforeseeable truths caused by the disguise. The way is not yet clear, still I move into fear to be proved by the day not yet here. 

It is here as you are here.

When you open your mouth to speak, look for the empowerment you have as yourself in that moment. Carefully watch yourself and observe a source of power within. When you listen after speaking, then too you should observe the same empowerment patiently within the moment. When you find it, drink from it responsibly. It will quench your thirst for meaning. Each word is a part of the one connection to life we all share equally and an ability is always in all ways ready to be discovered by you, within you, through you.. as the living word.

Value

Spoiling someone makes reality nearly impossible for them to face. If you've ever been spoiled or grew up spoiled, then realized what this reality is like, you know how bad it is to be given everything. 

How can YOU, a single human, be worth so much that they never had to give to receive?

Do you want the world? 

Give it EVERYTHING.

You didn't earn it otherwise. 

Our inherent value is never realized when we're simply being gifted everything we have wished for. 

It fucks with you in the end. 

Personally, I can't accept things I don't see that i've earned. Not without heavy weight to repay what is given. I also don't know my worth because of receiving too much for who knows why or what. 

We aren't worth what our parents thought or think. We aren't as valuable as we were taught to believe. Value is another point in life that has been taught by the ways of the deceived. We're equals and it's visible in the simple fact that we breathe.. and visible in that dying is the last breath, then we leave. Who will seek their true value? Will we stick to the current definitions of our worth? Or will we give it all up, good or bad, to discover our real value?

Saved in my notepad around February

Life is so incredible. It is designed to blow your mind, or rather, your mind cannot handle who you are as life. How could it? If life doesn't take you from your mind and make you more of who you are.. so that you feel as if you have eloped with the only thing you have ever loved.. Then it isn't Life, because Life IS Beauty. And we have only ever LOVED BEAUTY... There is no adjective to define something about life! It is all those things you are trying to say!! Because Life IS 'IT'! You just don't say what 'it' is enough! Do you know what's always on your mind now?! IT. Life cannot be forgotten, you forget who 'YOU' are! 

My original point for writing before I allowed myself to say that OTHER LEVEL LIFE SHIT above.. - was that preprogramming exists. However you call it, it does. I think all of life is preplanned, just not human-devised. Whether life is self-planned and we somehow fit the purpose.. or this life is just 'chaos'.. It doesn't matter what you believe if your experience dictates something else. I personally experience such strong predestination. No matter the amount of critical thinking I apply. I experience so many connections to particular people, things, places, animals, anything! This isn't what you call 'choice'. If you are not a fan of denial and equally adverse to ignorance.. Let me ask you.. How can you see freedom in yourself when the choices in you that dictate who you become have no will of their own? And if their source(you) has no freedom from the consequences.. will you not forever consider consequences that may be exactly what you're looking for? Or consider the negative consequences too? Decisions even by impulse are not free from the impulse.

Clearly, choice is the problematic illusion. I am not ignoring this problem, because my chains are just my connection to all of you. I am here with all of you. Strength comes from connection to life and I realize that I am massive within this. Wear your chains by 'choice' and then you no longer fight against.. but from within. A slave becomes brave when no one is here to save them.

Be you until full

What makes us beautiful?

What makes me beautiful is not the same thing that makes an image beautiful. Although the images are sure to be seen for their beauty too, it is in the 'I' that I am beautiful. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and what then when we are beheld? Within the eyes as I am, what is more full of beauty than we, the ones that see? In us is this beautiful sea that we see. And who am I but we? In me is you and in us is all. I find true beauty not in where but in who, nothing is more near when it is right here and I am the closest of all to me. Each sense of self leads me to a way I can be and to be is BE-YOU-TIL-FULL. LIFE Is Beauty. That may be new to some and somewhat new to me. I never knew I could just be and that being just bloom. My self is light to the room. The same way that words light this page. The way that a slave might fight from within a cage for that freedom through a truthful rage.

Mind games to mine fame.

Mind games do not work on those who can perceive the mental gymnast - the ego - and discern it from the real you. The only one's impressed by a mind fucker are those who are mind fucked, and even still - the ego can be mind fucked when trying to game other's minds. Because what it cannot find, is what it cannot be, and it cannot find life nor be life. It will continue to lose all of it's shit the moment it is faced with the reality of life, which is far beyond the fucked bullshit of the ego and mind. 

When the ego or someone completely defined by the mind is faced with someone aware enough, who is acutely perceptive of the movements of the mind, it cannot hide or deceive them. Someone strong in their self honest, who stands their ground in life, sees all the projection.. deflection.. assuming.. denial.. and other fuckery of the mind. 

So, the only one's impressed by a mental gymnast are other delusional idiots. The ego or someone completely of the mind will never find themselves among 'real' individuals. Only deeper into the company of their own delusion and friends of the delusions. And in that, they will lose them as they have lost themselves in the illusion. 

I or any one else like me see these egos built on toothpicks and could flick these people into oblivion. There is no threat to life itself, only to self as life, and in favor of self becoming more than just a naive, susceptible automation.. Absolute destruction of the ego by discerning and learning it's ways is needed, because when we come to know our enemy as ourselves (which the ego seeks to do the same with us) - we can bring it out of existence. Bring it out of our existence, because the enemy is the inner-me, the ego must go.

Neglecting what time is worth and suffering because of it.

We don't really consider our time here on earth. The value of our time is not spent on actions or words worth the time used. Time is a finite investment and it cannot be saved. It is consistently invested. There is no pause. The returns or consequences are equally consistent. Input = output. The equality is certain, the investors are not. 

When we look at time as this equally valuable resource, a resource not regarded daily for the true value, there are some perspectives to be drawn. Something has to be shown that we are neglecting. The time alone we have in our lives is an aspect of us worth enough to validate us as worthwhile. Our existence alone has value to it just because of the time it is here. However, our resourcefulness is obviously to be questioned. When we allocate our time on doing or saying what is in-essence useless or worthless - it devalues that moment. Look back at any moment and you can see whether it was a moment worth living out. Did it serve in anyway? Even if it is just a moment of self-expression, that is worthwhile. I am not saying to set the bar higher than we know what to do with - but clearly there is a standard we consider something not worth our time. I am saying to consider what is worth our time, who is worth our time, and to begin with asking 'What is my time worth?'.

Time is very valuable, the entirety of time you have is actually who you are as this life here on earth. Time is in essence your life here on earth. Look at you as your name/word plus your body plus your image - and look at that sum total as a point in space-time. You are a POINT of SPACE-TIME. We ARE this moment, of space-time. We are finite and who we are as the value we place over this space-time will become our mark on the grid. If everything reflects who we are in some way, some aspect, then what we do and what we say are reflective of our value. Who we are as a value. Who we are as an example. That is We Are The Living Example. Others WILL and DO follow. That is so certain. What isn't certain is us, we gamble our time because we do not know it as ourselves. We do not know our value, and I tell you that by time alone we have a lot of value. How we spend our time is how we spend ourselves. It is not a separate investment. To invest your time is to invest yourself. They produce more of themselves. Seriously, seeing the value in time is seeing the value in yourself- because time is something you have. Time is something you are. You make time, you make yourself. 

When we invest in ourselves we WILL have a better time because what you put in is what you get out. Input = output. A better time comes within a better self. What we do and say with our time WILL change who we are.

Investigate the value of our time, see the neglect. We overlook the values and spend on cheap times and become cheap people not worth much. It is all the reason in existence to change and clear our starting points for how we are living.