Saved in my notepad around February

Life is so incredible. It is designed to blow your mind, or rather, your mind cannot handle who you are as life. How could it? If life doesn't take you from your mind and make you more of who you are.. so that you feel as if you have eloped with the only thing you have ever loved.. Then it isn't Life, because Life IS Beauty. And we have only ever LOVED BEAUTY... There is no adjective to define something about life! It is all those things you are trying to say!! Because Life IS 'IT'! You just don't say what 'it' is enough! Do you know what's always on your mind now?! IT. Life cannot be forgotten, you forget who 'YOU' are! 

My original point for writing before I allowed myself to say that OTHER LEVEL LIFE SHIT above.. - was that preprogramming exists. However you call it, it does. I think all of life is preplanned, just not human-devised. Whether life is self-planned and we somehow fit the purpose.. or this life is just 'chaos'.. It doesn't matter what you believe if your experience dictates something else. I personally experience such strong predestination. No matter the amount of critical thinking I apply. I experience so many connections to particular people, things, places, animals, anything! This isn't what you call 'choice'. If you are not a fan of denial and equally adverse to ignorance.. Let me ask you.. How can you see freedom in yourself when the choices in you that dictate who you become have no will of their own? And if their source(you) has no freedom from the consequences.. will you not forever consider consequences that may be exactly what you're looking for? Or consider the negative consequences too? Decisions even by impulse are not free from the impulse.

Clearly, choice is the problematic illusion. I am not ignoring this problem, because my chains are just my connection to all of you. I am here with all of you. Strength comes from connection to life and I realize that I am massive within this. Wear your chains by 'choice' and then you no longer fight against.. but from within. A slave becomes brave when no one is here to save them.

Be you until full

What makes us beautiful?

What makes me beautiful is not the same thing that makes an image beautiful. Although the images are sure to be seen for their beauty too, it is in the 'I' that I am beautiful. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and what then when we are beheld? Within the eyes as I am, what is more full of beauty than we, the ones that see? In us is this beautiful sea that we see. And who am I but we? In me is you and in us is all. I find true beauty not in where but in who, nothing is more near when it is right here and I am the closest of all to me. Each sense of self leads me to a way I can be and to be is BE-YOU-TIL-FULL. LIFE Is Beauty. That may be new to some and somewhat new to me. I never knew I could just be and that being just bloom. My self is light to the room. The same way that words light this page. The way that a slave might fight from within a cage for that freedom through a truthful rage.

Mind games to mine fame.

Mind games do not work on those who can perceive the mental gymnast - the ego - and discern it from the real you. The only one's impressed by a mind fucker are those who are mind fucked, and even still - the ego can be mind fucked when trying to game other's minds. Because what it cannot find, is what it cannot be, and it cannot find life nor be life. It will continue to lose all of it's shit the moment it is faced with the reality of life, which is far beyond the fucked bullshit of the ego and mind. 

When the ego or someone completely defined by the mind is faced with someone aware enough, who is acutely perceptive of the movements of the mind, it cannot hide or deceive them. Someone strong in their self honest, who stands their ground in life, sees all the projection.. deflection.. assuming.. denial.. and other fuckery of the mind. 

So, the only one's impressed by a mental gymnast are other delusional idiots. The ego or someone completely of the mind will never find themselves among 'real' individuals. Only deeper into the company of their own delusion and friends of the delusions. And in that, they will lose them as they have lost themselves in the illusion. 

I or any one else like me see these egos built on toothpicks and could flick these people into oblivion. There is no threat to life itself, only to self as life, and in favor of self becoming more than just a naive, susceptible automation.. Absolute destruction of the ego by discerning and learning it's ways is needed, because when we come to know our enemy as ourselves (which the ego seeks to do the same with us) - we can bring it out of existence. Bring it out of our existence, because the enemy is the inner-me, the ego must go.